A mother to a daughter

Mila and I have a new habit – watching Disney movies. I love the movies as they are touching and inspiring, encouraging to pursue one’s dream, and ensuring that one can be whatever they want if they work hard for it.

Well, one of the movie has brought Mila to a conclusion that she is going to be an ice skater

Apart from the quality in the movie, the time I spent only with Mila is more than precious. That was the time when I can give my attention only for her, let her cuddle, talk with her, laugh with her, and feel deep inside how much I love her. For a long time I’ve been burdening myself with guilt for not giving her enough love and hugs when she was younger, when I was too busy after my own pursuits.

For that reason, I am taking every chance I have to hug her, to listen to her, to love her…. and to let her know I love her so much. After years she has grown up to be a wonderful girl who keeps suprising me with her thoughtfulness. I may not be a perfect mom, but I am striving to be a better one. And I have my only daughter as my inspiring and heartwarming angel.

- in between my struggle to fall asleep -

Lagi M

While last month was super crazy hectic – being unsupermom in the day time and working in the evening – I am now in the lowest point of mobility. I don’t drive the car anymore, he gotta do it himself. School is at summer break, so no more I-am-in-hurry morning ritual (bathing, feeding breakfast, preparing lunch box). Staying at home most of the time, unless weather permits us to go to the playground or swimming pool (both are inside the apartment gate) – don’t even feel like to cycling around and visit a friend’s house.

Well then… when you don’t have as much activities as you used to have – you tend to be L A Z Y. Yea, that is happening to me now – as I always quote to a friend – "Gw lagi M"

However, being in a "lazy mood" doesn’t constitute a good feeling for me. This is a kind of state when you start doing craps like playing computer games, watching too much TV, reading too much junk news (my apology if those are not what you considered as craps, but I stick to my own list hehe). At the same time, important stuffs are abandoned or being postponed. And as if those are not enough, I also set a bad example to the two little guys.

yeah rite, there should be a turning point – first of all – give me back my car. I need it to drive around, to the library, to the park, to the groceries – gee you know Houston is not entertaining in term of public transportation, not to mention taking onboard two ‘lil cutie pie who love to drive you mad. Next step is gonna be making lists of places to go – uhm Museum of natural science sounds exciting, but picnic at the nearest park would be nice (weather permitting for sure). Nah ya, the list is endless… but before starting them all – I need a loooong relaxing nap xixixixixii